5 Things You Didn't Know About Me

Even though I did write a few things about myself on my About page, I wanted to get a bit more personal. I am quite an open person in my day-to-day life, more or less, so I decided to open up a bit more on the Narcis Blog as well. After all, I treat this blog as a safe, comfortable online place where I can be completely myself. I always enjoy a read through blogger's more personal posts, as it makes it feel like we're a community of friends, even though with someone I never talk to, but that's because I feel a bit insecure at times. And no, that doesn't count as the first fact about me. Let's get cracking, shall we? 

01. I WAS BORN 3 MONTHS EARLY. Even though this isn't a big part in my life anymore, it used to be through most of my childhood, as I had breathing troubles due to undeveloped lungs as well as many allergies and I like to think that my eternal youth syndrome, aka me looking about 4 years younger, could also be blamed on that. It probably isn't though, I just have good genes. I am blessed enough that I ended up developing nicely and without bigger issues, as I do see other prematurely born children that are undergoing much more difficulties than I have. 

02. I HAVE SOCIAL ANXIETY AND CONCENTRATION ISSUES. For a while I thought that I had a bipolar disorder, because I would often have mood swings that I assumed where due to a bipolar disorder. Which was the reason why I first started going to my psychiatrist, and eventually after almost two years I was diagnosed with social anxiety, bordering on social phobia, as well as some concentration issues. I am now on my medications and am feeling better, however it is still something that I have to battle every single day of my life. It can get quite exhausting and can interfere with my day-to-day life, as for me it's a struggle to go grocery shopping on my own, and it takes a lot of effort to even make a single phone call to a person I am not comfortable with. I will do a more in-depth blog post about my social anxiety, as it may differentiate from other's and I feel like it's a topic that should be discussed. 

03. I DEALT WITH PLENTY LOSSES IN MY LIFE. It feels like I'm only touching the negative subjects here, but honestly these are the most important things that led me to where I am today. I lost my brother when I was 9 years old. It was a motorbike accident, which is the reason why even to this day I don't feel comfortable with motorbikes around me. It made a big impact on my life, but it also made me aware of how short life can be, and whenever I feel like giving up on something, I remind myself that I need to live my life to the fullest. The second loss was a bit different but still a loss nevertheless. My parents divorced, albeit not legally, but my father doesn't live with us anymore. I never really had close contact with him, because he used to work on a ship and therefore only spent a month or two at home, while the rest of the year was spent on the sea. Then came the many losses of friendships that I never thought would end, but they did. It all taught me important lessons, and made me who I am today.